When I first discovered, at the tender age of 41, that I was pregnant again I was surprised and excited. Honestly. I had always wanted another child (or five); so even though it wasn't the time table I would have set, it was very happy news to me.
Levi is now four years old and definitely has changed the family dynamic in more ways than I could have imagined. Someone recently described Levi this way: "He has a big personality." Oh my goodness, does he ever!
Levi is never short of opinions, questions, and dramatic facial expressions. He tries to tell me how to drive and where to turn and how fast or slow to go. I continually remind him that I know what I am doing and where I am going. It doesn't seem to faze him. Honestly, I spend much of my time just shaking my head and laughing and wondering what God has in store for this little guy.
Levi's newest thing is his desire for a little brother. Some of his preschool classmates have baby sisters and brothers, and now he believes it is our turn again. So at night when I am praying with him, he always asks me to pray for a baby brother. I do this for him with a clear conscience knowing that foster care and adoption are options. At 46, I am done with childbirth.
Recently, Kevin was putting Levi to bed. Levi made his usual prayer requests and Kevin prayed, but did't ask for a brother for Levi. Of course, Levi did not fail to notice this omission.
"Daddy, you didn't pray right. You didn't pray for a baby brother."
"Levi," Kevin said, "I didn't pray for a baby because I am too old. I don't want another baby."
Levi's wheels turned quickly, "Well, when we get the new baby, maybe you can find a another family."
Yes, Levi has his own ideas about how to rule the world. His philosophy is simple: get on board or get out of the way. Honestly, we all want to be in charge of life. "Tears for Fears" got it right: Everybody wants to rule the world. But, the Rolling Stones got it right too: You can't always get what you want.
What's your plan for the day ahead? Will try to rule the world or be at peace when you don't get what you want? Peace comes as we learn to trust in our Heavenly Father. After all, "He that did not hesitate to spare his own Son but gave him up for us all--can we not trust such a God to give us, with him, everything else that we can need?" (Rom. 8:32, Phillips)
So I will continue to pray for a new baby. And hope that if God somehow blesses us with another, we get to keep Kevin.