Wednesday, April 7, 2010

Would The Real God Please Show Up?

Lamentations 3: 16-18 says, "He (the Lord) has broken my teeth with gravel; he has trampled me in the dust. I have been deprived of peace; I have forgotten what prosperity is. So I say, "My splendor is gone and all that I had hoped from the Lord."

Have you ever been there? More than down and out, more than financial problems, more than you could possibly bear; more than likely it is a relationship or the death of one. People break our hearts much more deeply than inconvenient circumstances. You cry out to God day and night with tears and a broken heart and it seems as if He cannot hear you.

Lamentations 3:8 reads, "Even when I call out or cry for help, he shuts out my prayer." There is nowhere to go, no one to turn to. And the pain, the incredibly deep pain, just grows and grows and grows. There is no end in sight. You are in the dust, deprived of peace and God is pushing your face in the gravel so that your mouth is filled with dirt. He is rubbing your face in it. Ever been there?

Maybe you are there now. The distress is tearing your heart into pieces and you still have to show up for work and church too. Tell me, what is it that is keeping you going? How are you making it? Is it all the great verses people are quoting to you? Those awesome principles of the faith are really seeming terribly empty at the moment. How many more times can you bear to hear Romans 8:28? Not that it isn't true; but it's just not speaking to you right now! You already know that "All things work together for good for those who love the Lord...blah, blah, blah." Somehow that is not what you need. Somehow that is not enough.

I've been there and the principles and the promises didn't minister to me. When I was choking on all that gravel and dust, those words, even though they are true, felt void of meaning. They sounded only like words.

I needed more, so much more. I needed my Savior. I needed a real relationship with the Father. I needed a Friend like no other. I needed my God to tenderly hold me, love me, and pour out his grace and mercies upon me. I needed to be able to pour out my pain, my hurt, my hatred, my sin, and all of my heart on the only One big enough to handle it. He was all I had. So I cried out to Him.

He heard it all and He drew near. Lamentations 3:57 says, "You came near when I called you and you said, 'Do not fear.' O Lord, you took up my case; you redeemed my life.

I cannot explain this. I only know I have experienced God. I only know that when I was at my lowest of lows, there was Jesus, holding me and caring for me. I only know that my brokenness brought me to another depth of His immeasurable grace. I only know that He truly does love me and He will show up when I am waiting on Him. I only know that at the time of the trial, He didn't change the problem for me. He didn't fix things like I so wanted them to be fixed. I only know that He was enough.

But don't go on my word or the principle of the thing....test Him, prove Him, find Him for yourself.


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